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see, alas! many backslidings; and for this reason even Gentiles of piety think, like thy servant Joshua, that "they cannot serve the Lord." But I trust and hope, by thy infinite grace, that the time will approach when thy people shall finally be the redeemed of the Lord, and the whole world shall serve thee.

Dec. 4.-Lord, I have already sinned in abundance, when will the time of redemption come? when will my heart be sanctified by thy grace? I am exceedingly cast down, and I scarcely dare look upwards, it seems to me as if my Saviour had disappeared, " a little while and ye shall not see me, and again a little while, and ye shall see me."-Let me see thee, O Lord! Amen.

Dec. 5.-The Rev. Mr. Jowett called on me, and in the Lazaretto conversed with me on the subject of missionaries, and the state of the Jews at Jerusalem and Palestine. I desired him to draw the attention of the English inhabitants of Malta to the establishment of an Auxiliary Society to the Society for promoting Christianity among the Jews.

Dec. 6.-Lord, if it is thy holy will to make me an instrument in thy hand to proclaim peace, to proclaim glory to thee, O Most High, and good will toward men, then give me thy grace, O Lord, that I myself may feel that peace, and the glory of thy Gospel in my own soul, and give me that good will towards men, towards every man, towards men, ́ even towards men, who have no good will towards me-for I must know that as thou didst not come to the righteous but to call sinners to repentance, thus I must do, thus I must do, thus I must act-give me thy grace, O Lord, that I may be enabled to sit down at table with publicans and sinners, to bring them to the saving doctrine of thy Gospel-and if it is thy will, O Lord, hear me, I beseech thee, let me not give any offence to any one-Hallelujah ! Praised be thy name! Hallelujah!

"Paul, called to be an apostle of Jesus Christ, through the will of God!" O Lord, I pretend to be a Missionary

of thy word-am I this through the will of God? if I am through thy will, then, O Lord, purge me with hyssop, that I may be clean, purge me with thy precious blood, that I may go back unto the church of God which is at Jerusalem, unto thy church in the wilderness, that I may preach by my words, life, and conversation, to the saints. to be sanctified in Christ Jesus! Confirm, in myself, O Father, by thy Holy Spirit, the testimony of thy Son Jesus Christ! so that I may come behind in no gift, waiting for the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ! that I may be blameless in the day of our Lord Jesus Christ! that I may be called unto the fellowship of thy Son, our Lord Jesus Christ! that I may be perfectly joined together with thy saints in the same mind, and in the same judgment-let me not be in contention with any! for thou, O Lord Christ, art not divided! O rend the heavens and come down, with thy fire divine, and direct and incline me, according to thy will, that the cross of Christ may not be made of none effect, by my deficiency! Let thy cross, O Lord, be first of all made to me, by experience in my own soul-the power of God! Let me not be a disputer of this world! Save me, O Lord, by the foolishness of thy preaching! I have heard that thousands of prayers are offered for me in England; let those prayers, O Lord, not be disappointed! Let the time of my quarantine at Malta be the time of bringing me savingly to the experimental knowledge of thy cross! O Lord, I am empty and void! speak to my soul; "Let there be light;" and thou, Christ Jesus, be' unto me, wisdom, and righteousness, and sanctification, and redemption; and let me glory in the Lord!

Dec. 7. Jehovah-Jireh! withhold not thine only Son from me! and withhold not thy only Son from thy people; let thy holy Gospel be seen in the mount of the Lord!

Jehovah-Jireh! give to me thy powerful grace, that I likewise may withhold nothing from thee!

Jehovah-Jireh! behold the fire of my passion, the fire

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of the corruption of my heart-behold my lukewarmness in thy service-where is the Lamb-where is thy only begotten Son?-Jehovah-Jireh !

Jehovah-Jireh! speak to my soul," Here am I, my son!" Jehovah-Jireh! with my soul have I desired thee in the night; yea, with my spirit will I seek thee early; let favour be showed to me, by hastening to convert my soul truly unto thee! Jehovah-Jireh !

Jehovah-Jireh! let that day soon be seen! that that song may be sung in the land of Judah: We have a strong city; Salvation will God appoint for walls and bulwarks: and ordain peace for thy people, and work all their works in them! Jehovah-Jireh !

I received to-day a letter from Mr. Bayford, which brought the sorrowful account of the death of the Rev. John Owen. Again a servant of the Lord gone to his

rest.

My two Greek boys learn now by heart portions of the Greek Gospel. It gives me unspeakable joy that the Lord has made me the father of two Gentile boys.

Dec. 8.-When I consider thy heavens, the work of thy fingers, the moon and the stars, which thou hast ordained, then I cannot for one moment doubt that thou art mighty enough to be the helper of the fatherless, that thou art mighty enough to prepare my heart, and the heart of thy people residing at Jerusalem, for receiving thy holy Gospel! O Lord, be my counsellor, for how long shall I take counsel in my soul? having sorrow in my heart daily. Consider and hear me, O Lord, my God; lighten mine eyes, lest I sleep the sleep of death! Lord, thy people are gone aside, thy people are all gone aside, we are all gone aside; they do not call upon the Lord Jesus Christ-O Lord, I am now bidden to the wedding-draw me, that I may come unto the marriage of the Lamb-let me not make light of it, and let me not go my own way— let me not go to my merchandise-and, O Lord, make me one of those servants who go into the highways, that I

may gather together the lost sheep of Israel, both bad and good, to the wedding of the Lamb! O Lord, let thy people cease to fill up the measure of their fathers, in order that they may escape the damnation of hell!

And gather these poor Israelites under thy wings! Blessed be Thou that comest in the name of the Lord. Lord, I hear nothing around me, since my arrival in this island, but sighs and prayers for Israel's salvation-and my heart so cold and indifferent!

Dec. 9.-" Watch ye, therefore, for ye know not what hour your Lord will come!" This, O Saviour, thou dost say to every one, but especially to those, who go about to proclaim thy name in the congregations of Israel, and how often do I begin to sleep-how often did I go about without preparing the lamps! O Lord, O Saviour, out of the depth I call unto thee, appoint not my portion with the hypocrites-neither appoint my portion with those, who by their irregular conduct give just reasons to others to believe they are hypocrites?

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I wrote to several persons here about establishing an auxiliary Society for the Jews' Society at London.

Dec. 16.-I got pratique, and took my abode in the house of Doctor Naudi. I called on the Rev. W. Jowett, and was very kindly received by him and Mrs. Jowett.

I heard in the evening a sermon of Mr. King, the Missionary sent by the Paris Missionary Society-he had for me a letter of introduction from Wilder, Esq.

Wednesday, Dec. 19.-I preached a sermon in the chapel of Mr. Temple, in which I gave a short account of my proceedings in the Levant, and of the earthquake. !

Thursday, Dec. 20.-The Rev. W. Jowett invited the Rev. Messrs. Temple, Fisk, King, Deinenger and myself to discuss several questions with regard to the Jews. I had to propose many objections, which I want to be answered by the Christian brethren, that I may be better prepared for my Jews in the Levant. After this we dined together. I went to-day on board of His Ma

jesty's ship of war Martin, and sold seven English Bibles, and seven English New Testaments.

WOLF.

Letter from Mr. Wolf to the Committee of the London Society.

Gentlemen,

You will excuse me that I did not long ago perform my duty by expressing to you the gratitude I still, and hope ever to feel, towards every one of you, for the kind protection you afforded to me when at Cambridge, and for the orders you sent to Aleppo, to furnish me with Hebrew New Testaments. You may be assured that I cannot without tears remember the kind affection you exhibited towards me.-Gentlemen, you have to undergo many trials in your labours for the benefit of my brethren-for their eternal welfare-but notwithstanding all this-it is the Lord's command to speak comfortably unto the children of Sion: and I trust and hope by the Lord's infinite mercy that Israel will finally be constrained to know him-and will hear the voices of their prophets which are read every Sabbath-day, and that they will begin to fulfil them in believing in him-who is God above all, blessed for ever.

I know that you have received the accounts I sent to my kind patrons, Henry Drummond, Esq. and John Bayford, Esq. You will have perceived by them, that even the Jews at Jerusalem were ready to listen to what I had to say, and they told me what their expectations and hopes are: and as I am now returning to Egypt and Jerusalem, in the company of the dear brethren from America, the Rev. Messrs. Fisk and King, we shall see more exactly the result which the reading of the Gospel, and my conversing with these poor sheep of Israel, has produced, by God's grace.

On my arrival at Malta, I perceived by the letter of Henry Drummond, Esq. directed to Dr. Naudi, that the Committee of the London Society for promoting Christianity among the Jews wishes that the Auxiliary Society

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